I wake up and its the first thing on my mind – I wonder if today will be the day I hear something.
Every time the phone rings.
Every time my computer beeps to say I have a new email.
Its in the back of my mind in almost every conversation to do with my job.
A constant rumbling. A longing. For the child I am yet to meet. For any kind of news.
I think: May be today will be the day I hear something. Or may be this week. God, I hope its next week, if not.
But its never the call I want to get. Or the email.
Time ticks on.
And we stay in this limbo.